Today marks two weeks of feeling symptoms of being sick. Exactly 2 weeks ago I got a stupid sore throat while at the mall with my Momma and silly me thought it was just because of the dry air but no, it was a warning. Today I tried to get me some antibiotics to help clear it up but they said I don't have an infection so no antibiotics for me. Basically I just have to keep up with the Mucinex and my inhaler and I should be fine in a couple days.
On a brighter note, let me just say I looooove getting packages. I think that's the main reason I order things online. Just to open up the boxes and envelopes. Once I open them whatever I ordered usually just lays around for a while until I work up the energy to put everything up. Right so today I got 3 packages. I was kind of surprised since I haven't been tracking my orders so I was only expecting 1 but he gave me 3 :)
In package number 1 was something I'm really excited to try out. You know how you could watch all these makeup videos on Youtube but you can't really afford the products they use so it could all become depressing after a while. This time I found something I can buy! :)
It's the Real Techniques Miracle Complexion Sponge which is supposed to be a dupe for the expensive beauty blender from Sephora which I can't afford. I've recently been trying to do more makeup wise for when I go out. I tried it for 2 days now but I don't really like how it's coming out yet so they're no pictures. I still feel weird wearing powder on my face so I gotta find a look that I actually like. Maybe a different translucent powder because the one from Elf makes me look like a ghost. My birthday is coming up so I can probably get a good one from Sephora for my free gift. Here's to hoping. Until then I'll try to figure something out with what I have.
In package number 2 was a repurchase of my leave in conditioner.
I've been using the It's a 10 plus keratin for just over a year now and I still really love it. I've even gotten my whole family using it now. It's great for when I just get my hair done over but I think I want to try a thicker one along with this because I find myself using a lot of it when I get more new growth and my hair needs doing over. I thought I ordered it but I want to try to one by Shea Moisture from their Jamaican Black Castor Oil line. I'll have to pick it up from Walmart tomorrow if I ever get myself to leave the house.
Inside of package number 3 was also a hair product, one that I've been meaning to buy for a while but I've been putting it off since it's kind of expensive.
My hair really likes this oil and I can really tell it's missed it while I've been trying the OGX oil. This one is thicker and leaves my hair feeling so much softer that any other oil I've tried. I want to try coconut oil since I've always been hearing good reviews on it and it is hell of a lot cheaper than this so I might try it out soon.
Keeping with hair product purchases I got a new deep conditioner since my supply has been seriously running low, only 3 left. Coming from my usual 5 or 6 having 3 was giving me a bit of anxiety so I got one the last time I was at Walmart.
This is the As I Am Hydration Elation Intensive Conditioner. I like their co-wash even though I don't use it much anymore and I'm curious to see how this is going to work. I stopped using it because I just don't co-wash my hair anymore. I already wash my hair once a week which for me is a lot and any more I feel like it's just too much on my hair and scalp. I feel like either my hair texture is changing or it's trying to tell me something so I'm trying to figure out what's up with that.
I finally got myself a jeans jacket and pea coat that actually fits me yesterday so those were some good buys. (I'll put in the pictures tomorrow when the light it better).
This week I'm really going to try to get back into a routine of being productive and exercising since I should be getting over this cold soon. I was going to go to the gym at Pace but I'm starting to rethink that since its an hour and a half away but I might still go. I don't think I'm going to do the ballet classes just yet. I want to make sure I'm at a certain level of fitness before I commit to paying for a class. That and I have to find all my stuff and order ballet shoes so it looks like the gym or at home pilates is it for me.
Anyways I'm rambling. I have to go clean up the explosion of sweaters in my room and get ready for the FIVE HOURS OF TV i have ahead of me. It's not exactly 5 hours, just 5 shows I wanna watch.
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Until next time :)
So I haven't done a blog post since Nick left and that was over 3 weeks ago and quite a bit has happened.
Firstly I had about just over a week in between when Nick left and when my momma came to visit which I used to mostly do nothing. I didn't go to Walmart, I didn't exercise much and I didn't wash my hair until the day she got in. I was in a bit of a funk and feeling kinda down. It's hard when you apply for all these jobs and the only thing you hear back is "you sound great but you're not for us" or "I'm sure you're awesome but we went with someone else". It makes you wonder and doubt about all the choices you made in the past like "did I really need to do all those dance classes during the summer instead of finding a job?" or stuff like "maybe I should have been a dancer since that was what I know". I took about 3 days of doing absolutely nothing and just wallowing in my life and just getting it all out of my system before I picked myself up to get ready to head over to Jersey. I didn't even really have time to get over that before my mom came so it was just going from one thing to another.
Once I got to Jersey I felt kind of like myself again. I was around family and everyone was happy which made me feel normal. I didn't stay with my mom simply because I didn't want the empty feeling when she left. Whenever my family leaves I always need a couple days to get over the panic and anxiety of being alone again. By not staying with her but just being close I got the best of both worlds. I saw her almost every day but I didn't get the dependent feeling again and when I left her yesterday there wasn't that pang of being alone that I usually get so it seemed to have worked out well. While in Jersey I mostly just hung out with my family, did some unexpected shopping and read a little. I got some work clothes so that when the elusive call for an interview comes in I will at least look pretty :). I got a couple sweaters as well for the winter and I'm thinking I may look for a scarf or a plain colored sweater. I still haven't unpacked my bags to really see what I bought because....I'm sick.
I started to get a sore throat around the first Tuesday I as there. It was ok since that was the only symptom I was getting, no coughing, no sneezing and no noticeable fever so I was still optimistic that I could get over it. I got some medicine on Wednesday and hoped that it was pass. By Friday I think I had decided that I was definitely sick. On Saturday I bought some different medicine since I had now somehow developed a cough that sounded like thunder. I don't even know how I got sick. By Sunday I had resolved that I needed to go to the doctor for some meds and to get checked out. Unlucky for me I got the nurse that didn't want to give me any antibiotics so I still had to go back today because I started wheezing which is never a good sign. So today I had to go on the nebulizer and I got me an inhaler. Yay me...
Can I just say that both the nebulizer and the inhaler taste disgusting. They've already helped and it's only been about half a day but I could do without the taste. I've almost had an inhaler a couple times but now that I actually have one it's weird. I grew up with so many people around me being asthmatic, it was sort of like an inner circle I was never part of but now that I sort of maybe kind of am part of it now it feels weird. Sort of like it seems bigger and more important that it is to other people because I built it up in my mind when I was younger and now that I have it I shouldn't feel good about it but the child in me does. Sort of finally feeling part of the group of friends I never fit in with. Maybe this is karma telling me I shouldn't be wishing for things like this.
Apart from being sick I honestly had a really good time with my family. My only regret is that I may have gotten them sick but overall it was a much needed distraction from my usual mundane life. There was still talk about finding a job but it wasn't all consuming and the topic of every conversation. There weren't those expecting and waiting eyes to see when I was going to get a job. There wasn't any pressure to apply for a certain number of jobs a day and the constant checking to see if I'd done it. Don't get me wrong I still did my applications but there wasn't that pressure. It felt good.
While on my mini-vacation I was able to start and finish watching an entire season of a new series, Madam Secretary.
I really love this show. I remember when it first premiered and I told myself I wanted to watch it but I never did. Now that I have I can recommend it to everyone, go watch it! It's really interesting to see how all these international relations are handled and how intertwined they could be. This show could basically make anyone want to be the new Secretary of State.
Now that I'm back home I have to get over this cold/sickness or whatever you want to call it and get into a routine that keeps my spirits up so I don't fall back into my need for wallowing. I don't know if I want to call it depression yet since it wasn't diagnosed or anything but it felt like it. Anyway, I've got medicine to take and sleep to get to so that I can be up and at 'em tomorrow.
Baaaiiiii
To say its been an interesting two weeks is an understatement. My last post was the day before Nick got in and now it's been about 4 days since he left.
Soooo let's start with the day he came in cause that was a busy day. He got here at about 9 in the morning or so and I was actually awake and showered and everything. I had so much trouble sleeping the night before for sooo many different reasons. For 1 it was hot. Secondly I woke up in the middle of the night to check my phone for messages and I somehow broke the little flap thing that's on Galaxy S5's, the charging port cover. I stayed up freaking out a little that I broke my phone until I realized it's easily replaced and I don't have to carry it in anywhere. Soo when he got here and I got in all my hugs and cheek squeezing he asked about some package my family sent to me that I was told not to open. My first thought was how in the world does he know about this mysterious package when I don't even know anything about it. So I got it and opened it and in it was a Galaxy Tab A!! For MEEE!!
So this is my graduation/birthday present from my family (mainly Claire) and Nick. :) Anyone who's been around me much knows I've been asking for a tablet for the past 2 years but I stopped asking when I got to NY since I knew all of our money was going elsewhere so I was ok. Then it became my first planned buy once I got a job so I was just waiting. But noooowwwww I got one which means I'm not on my computer as much.
So after I got over the novelty of my new toy we went to the movies to watch Man From U.N.C.L.E. which was AMAZING!! I love the British humour and everything about the movie was just really good. The jokes were subtle and not out there but I still found myself literally laughing out loud. Henry Cavill did a really good job with this.
So that was basically our Saturday. Sunday was a lazy day. We had planned to go to the mall but after eating breakfast and showering I was back in bed not wanting to go anywhere so we said it would just be a lazy day of watching tv. About an hour later we got bored and went to the mall. I picked up a couple of those $2 camisoles from Forever 21 and a headpiece for the 360 so that I could talk to Claire while playing. I think I spent at most $20 so I was happy.
On Monday we made my usual trip to Walmart for food for the week. I usually like to get there by 2 but with Nick I think we made it around 3 so it was a bit more packed than usual. The screaming kids really got to him but I just tuned them out. Surprisingly it wasn't too hot which was great. There was a nice breeze and walking across the car park didn't feel like walking across the desert.
I think on Tuesday we just stayed home and I made him watch movies. He had said that he was on vacation and didn't want to go back to Montreal tired so I threw out all my ideas of going exploring Soho and Chinatown. Plus he was complaining about the commute into the city. He wasn't a fan of being on a bus and train for over an hour.
Wednesday was the day I was really excited for. We went to IHOP. We were going to go to the one close by here but we decided to head into the city and go to the one on the lower east side. By the time it was time to transfer trains I was a bit out of it from staying awake and almost forgot we had to get a different train but we made it to IHOP eventually. Walking around on the lower east side is really nice. So at IHOP we ordered waaaayyy too much food. I didn't even get a picture with all of it.
This was just food and before the other 2 stacks of pancakes arrived. I've been wanting to go back to IHOP since I went about 3 years ago in Jersey with my cousins. We had enough food that all we ate for the entire day was IHOP, for breakfast and dinner.
Friday was a day in the city, the city city. Not the upper east side where I kept getting off with him to save him from the city. No. We went to Time Square to meet up with Robert for lunch. Robert had a work emergency so I took the opportunity to take Nick to Smashburger. As you all know I am THE BIGGEST Smart Burger fan in Montreal. Every time I go I must go there at least once. With that said, Smashburger comes in a close second. When I was at Fulton for my summer course and I didn't know what to eat, I always ended up there so of course Nick had to try it.
I had my usual burger with sweet potato fries and I really don't remember what Nick had but he was happy which is all that counts. So far Nick hasn't been a fan of American food which shows that I've become used to the food here but he did like Smashburger. SUCCESS!!
We walked around some more and then went home since I was becoming cranky from being overly full and tired from walking around. When we got home I made him watch the Halo 4 movie on Netflix for what reason I don't know but he woke up in the middle of the night pointing out the window saying that the cars have grenade launchers. I'm usually the one to be expected to sleep talk but watching someone else do it sort of explained why Claire used to laugh at me so much.
Saturday was the real travel day. It wasn't planned but we made the 2 1/2 hour commute to Jersey to spend the day with Robert, Deniece, and the Munchkins. This is a trip I've kind of wanted to make for a while. All the other times I had to go to Jersey I got a ride in with someone or I got picked up so I never got to experience it. For some reason I like going on new trips like that and figuring out what bus or train to take where. So to make this trip with Nick was funny. First of all Nick is kind of the opposite. Then he knew it was a long commute so I had to be a bit more attentive to see if he was ok or needed anything. So we made the trip and believe it or not I didn't sleep. Instead I started a new book series. The More Than series by Jay Mclean. I've had this book series on my computer for a while but I never started it and I really don't understand why. By the time we got on the bus into Jersey I was almost in tears and then a couple minutes later holding in a laugh. I loooooove these books. I'm already on book 4 so that says a lot.
Spending the day in Jersey was a lot of fun. Nick finally got to meet the dog Zoe and I hung out with my cousins and laughed a lot. We left kinda later that we wanted to and I was falling asleep on the bus before we even got back into the city. Not my greatest planning moment but Nick stayed awake. By the time we got home it was around 1:20am buuuutttt this trip showed me that the buses don't stop running after a certain time from the Jamaica Center station so it wasn't a complete loss.
Sunday was the ultimate lazy day since he was leaving so we tried updated Barry (my laptop) to Windows 10 but it didn't work so we just watched tv. After he left I just slept.
In case you were wondering, I did apply for jobs while Nick was here so my schedule wasn't completely messed up when he came. He just sat there and ate fruit snacks while I did what I had to do which was nice. Speaking of fruit snacks, I usually buy the mixed fruit packets for variety but a couple days ago I open one and I get this:
That's 7 grapes!! The first time it happened it was 8 and I was like it just must have been a fluke but then I got this one. How is this mixed fruit??
Anyways, I'm off to get lunch since I just finished my workout (first time in over a month) and applied for a couple jobs. It's been a productive day so far so I'm just gonna continue that.
Carla :)
